Resignation (체념) – Morissette Amon cover

I was happy those times I spent with you

Even though it was so hard for you

It’s not that I didn’t know how you felt in your heart

I felt it too.

Letting go, letting you leave it all behind

It’s something I just cannot get used to

You have hurt me so

And I just can’t help but fall away from you

Why’d you not tell me or you just could not?

Did you ever think of everything I feel?

You fell for me and said you loved me

But you just let me fall and never tried to catch me at all

Should I hate you and try to just forget?

Should I blame myself and live with this regret?

If I could only do it all again, I would turn back time

Back when I was yours and you were still mine

Why’d you not tell me or you just could not?

Did you ever think of everything I feel?

You fell for me and you loved me

But you just let me fall and never tried to catch me at all

Should I hate you and try to just forget?

Should I blame myself and live with this regret?

If I could only do it all again, I would turn back time

Back when I was yours and you were still mine

No, I won’t ask anymore

If you want to walk out that door

Just leave, leave and don’t look back

No, I won’t shed any tear and keep on hoping that you’re still here

I watch you walk away from me and it’s getting hard to see

We we’re never meant to be

Neol manhi geuriweohal geot gata chamayaman hagetji ijhyeojil su itdorok

Dashin saranggateungeo haji anheulrae

Nae majimak sarangeul doraseon neoege jugo shipeoseo

Haengbokhagil barae naboda jo-eun yeoja mannagireul

Imus General Community Quarantine Guidelines

We had been in lockdown for several weeks and surely it help in slowing down the community infections. There were few people who were infected evidently the local government action and response to the COVID-19 Pandemic is effective. Now they are trying to loosen up and allow very minimal movement within the city. And here are the guidelines they had in place while the city is in GCQ

Igorot In Lock down Episode 1

It has been a long time since I updated this blog. I had been busy at work, in life and definitely in the other blog I have. Nonetheless, I decided to share a different story in this blog and try to update it more often. This time around let me share to you my Lock down Experience.

Imagine being alone locked in the comfort of your home. No one to talk to. No one to eat with. Basically being alone.

There are a lot of moments during the ECQ (Enhanced Community Quarantine) where I had thoughts of self pity hahaha. When anxiety are kicking in. Moments where you felt so alone. Moments where you wished you had that special someone. Moments where I wanted everything dark. Flashes of memories when you felt you were abandoned by someone.

However, along with those bad moments comes an array of memories where I felt I was loved. Moments when you were struggling but someone came and stayed by your side. Moments when someone understands your inner feelings when that someone listens to your rants just so I can unload and move forward.

That is when positivity feels my tarnished emotion and starting to make myself useful again. That is when I told myself that there should be something I needed to do so I wouldn't feel anxious and not to feel alone.


1. I started to blog. Blogging or Writing consumes my time. It makes me wander. It is where I could exhaust my emotion. It is an activity that keeps my mind active and focused on the things I wanted to say.


2. I check my Social Media regularly. It is where I kept myself informed as to what is going on with my loved ones or the people I care. It is an avenue for me to socialize and chat and talk with my family and friends. At least it is an avenue where I could see how someone so dear is doing :).


3. Watching My Favorite Series also keeps me in love, motivated, and above all it keeps me entertained.


4. Reading keeps my imagination going hahahaha it somehow brings me to a different world where negativity do not prosper.


5. Household Chores my form of exercise. Its time to slowly get rid some of the memories stuck in my house. Throwing them away somehow is also a therapy as I try to throw away those emotion that comes along with these things.


6. Exploring my creative venture through sewing and beading.

During these time in EXTENDED COMMUNITY QUARANTINE/ LOCK DOWN due to the COVID PANDEMIC, falling into depression or anxiety attacks may kick in more so if you are alone like me. But there are ways to combat it. It is by doing something that you love. Doing something that keeps your body active and your mind working or wander around through reading or writing. Its up to you there are a lot of activities that we can do.


Withdrawing money or going to the bank is a struggle. Imagine, I am only at least a kilometer or 2 away to a mall near me, however, because that mall is part of different city as I am near that boundary and because Of the implemented lock down I cannot cross the border. The military men don't allow me even though I beg as the next bank/atm near me is at least 5 or 6 kilometers away and I would need to walk to get there since I don't have a car or there is no public transportation that I can take to get me to a bank.

It took my 2 hours to go to an ATM and another 2 hrs walking back home. Just to withdraw cash. It is one of the disadvantages of the ECQ where no public transportation is available.

Work from home at last! Fortunately the company allowed us to work from home! At least I wont loose a job and I am able to continue working. Good thing the company is generous enough to lend us the desktop in the office and provide as router so we could do our job. Here’s my new workspace for the next few months as we transition to work from home set up.

THE FOOD - I call it my #ECQFOOD

I am happy as I have a generous neighbour  who shares their food with me. The first on my list is Champorado, a Filipino comfort food with rice and chocolate and milk in it.

Living alone means doing just anything and everything on your own, that goes with food. During the “normal life” I used to have when we dont have this pandemic I just simply buy my own food in a small carinderia on a daily basis as I normally eat in a cafeteria at work. So basically I never intended to be cooking at home so I never bought a stove or rice cooker as I dont see any need of that. So during these whole time where everyone is in lockdown and a very limited time to go out in a given week I resorted to instant food.

The first one in my list is instant pancit canton with corned tuna! Hahaha oh yes baby! That instant noodle where you just pour hot water in it and let it set for few minutes drain the water and add canned corned tuna and boom I have instant food! I did not add the seasoning of the instant noodles because I dont want to add more junk seasoning and salt and msg into my food. I wanted the rawness of that corned tuna as a seasoning to taste for my noodles.

We get tired of eating just the canned sardines for breakfast till dinner right? So just what I did with corned tuna I added the sardines to my noodles. Its heaven! Hahaha that was my way of doing away with just plain sardines in the morning till dinner time!

I did all these because to avoid going out to buy food besides I would need to walk at least 2 hrs for me to get Jolibee or McDonalds so mixing food that is in my house already is more convenient and economical rather than having my food delivered to my house.

THE SERIES - watching these series is making me sane and definitely one of those moments where to keeps me excited. At least there are these days of the week where I am looking forward to because the new episode are being aired and when I had anxious feeling or I felt bored and alone I just re-watched those series that keeps me happy!

Every Saturday is MY ENGINEER night!

My Friday is of course 2gether The Series night

And there are series that I really love that I keep on watching anytime and every time I am bored! And click here to see them all.

Another crazy stuff I was able to make during lockdown (ECQ) is to challenge my crazyness to and created a hat full of beads. I came up with these idea when my virtual trainor told us to wear cap on a monday.

And then I created a crown for our THANKFUL THURSDAY Costume! Hahaha just doing over the top when my trainor ask me us to do something.

And of course the shade! It has to be over the top too! See I was thinking of throwing away these beads but instead of doing it, I just recreated something. It kills time as I stay home with no one to talk to and somehow it tickles a little of my imagination.

As we transition to what we call General Community Quarantine where it is more relaxed. It is relaxed in a way that at least we are able to have public transportation unlike the ECQ where there is no transportation available.So to share my experience about the GCQ then that would be the second part of this blog post. IGOROT IN LOCK DOWN EPISODE 2

Message in a Bottle

Story in a Bottle

It was dark…. It was pitch black but despite the darkness of the night a tiny sparkling star adorns the night like a diamond so precious beautifying the dullness of the sky. The stars aligned making the sky look like a beautiful long black gown, so steep that even a million folds of the richest man on earth could not afford.

The twinkling of the stars glim a hope to a withered heart. It brightens and lightens up a heavy heart and brings euphoria to a depressed mind. It gives a blanket to the coldness of someone’s cold stormy life.

In my mind happiness is only to some who could afford the cost that goes along with it. Happiness is simply just an expensive doohickey. It is something for the wealthy personalities. I had adjudged this theory after a heavy fight in the quest to the truest happiness. Lost from the battle has taken away the only sparkle of hope that happiness exists in the battlefield of the poor.

My heart hardened like a stone in the river. Appalled by callousness of the world, my life needs to sail leaving every scar that hardens my delicate heart.

Life goes on and spending the night looking up the sky wondering what a world would have in the other planets wandering around the stars. Withered as it may seem a second chance of happiness has struck and shattered every wall I have in place to safe guard me from the cruelty of the world. In so many years of sulking myself deserted in the wilderness of the world I created to pacify this bitter heart. Someone has forcefully entered the horizon where no one has entered. I thought you are just one fellow who has lost the battle welcoming you with an open heart. At last someone has come to accompany me in this world cultivated to soothe those who have lost the battle in their quest to happiness.

It was that smiles that brought hope into my life. It was that sweetness that melts my hardened heart. It was your beautiful heart that I have fallen. It wasn’t that cute little face or the facade of the most celebrated face that everyone loved that captivated my withered heart.

It was in my dream that we’re a happy aficionado wandering the wilderness like Tarzan and Jane. You were like the moon in my darkest night giving light an array of hope and a smile in my darkest night. My smile was true and my laughter is from the heart.

It never was my intention to engrave this dream into my heart. I never planned fairy tale with you. But all fairytales have their own ending. But when it ends I’d hope it is like a Cinderella story in the modern times, only to find out that my story with you would end up not the protagonist or the antagonist of your own story but rather I was just the wall flower in your story.

My time has come to bid farewell to the wilderness I created. I am thankful for you have shown me the essence of living outside the walled wilderness I have created. That love is only found in me and not in the world. That misery is only true when we allow it to grow in our heart.

As I hold my very last breath, I wish you the happiness you deserve. I will leave you in peace so you may raise your family with abundant love. As for me, let me travel the deep of the Pacific Ocean, dispersing my story in a bottle into the waves of the ocean

An Awesome Travel

When I travel I am always on the lookout for new experiences because these experiences tells you a beautiful story of the place in general.

I always wanted to experience not only the beautiful sceneries and landscape of the place I visit but what fascinates me most is to experience the people's life, culture and food.

Last quarter of 2017, a friend and a confidante whom I call mamskie Ms Annabelle Ocampo brought up the idea of us travelling together to Baguio my home city and Nueva Ecija her home province. (Its really one of the perks of doing the business I have as it brings me to people who would make your journey more colorful).

We visited Baguio and made sure I could bring her to Tam-awan Village a place where she could have a glimpse of our place.

Then brought her to Good Shephered, a place where she could buy good quality of local spreads and snacks.

After a few days in Baguio... its time for us to travel to Laur Nueva Ecija.

I am at awe to the family host of my travel as they allowed me to emerse myself to the beauty of thier place coupled with the experiences theyve allowed me to have. Thank you mamskie Annabelle Ocampo and family and friends I trully enjoyed everything! The hospitality is definitely above what I was expecting. I never felt I was a visitor I felt I belong to their family.

THE PEOPLE I MET

Travelling for me is meeting people and this trip I have met a lot of them. Knowing them more, staying, eating, sleeping and chatting with them in one roof make the trip more pleasurable and memorable!

Exploring Baguio With the Girls!

Max Alverio III with the gang!

Memories worth keeping

Creating memories is what makes travelling worth it all. The memories that is worth keeping and sharing...

I guess its Filipino culture in a way to show hospitality is through food! I love the food and definitely enjoyed it. Filipino's love to eat and shares their food to everyone.

Buddle fight - the food are placed in the table and everyone picks the food they want to it. The catch is no one is allowed to use spoon, fork, and plate.

One of the Filipino's past time is singing so in a big family like mamskie's family... a videoke is definitely always present. So lets sing a long!

Sending mamskie off to Brunie!

ITS CEREALICIOUS TIME

It was one busy weekdays for Apple, JM and me i  search for the location where we could have our RAINBOW Project (I will talking about the project in the coming days) and its definitely time for us to reward ourselves with a good food from a tiring after shift search for that special place.

After endulging to a sinfuly mouthwatering burger. My friend Apple once again brought me to yet another mouth watering snack house; its Cerealicious!

I can't help myself but strike a pose in their counter. Its colorful, vibrant and really welcoming counter.

Though I am already an ice cream lover, this cerealicious will definitely have a huge space in my stomach. I can basicaly endulge all of thier specialties.

It excites me more thinking where our next stop would be as I am always on the search for that delicious yet affordable food store. Do you have a place you could suggest? Let me know.

Hook It Up

Everyone may seem to have their own talent crafted with years of experience in their own fields. Others express it through arts, others in education, science, politics, business, customer engagement and many more.

Through the course of the year, I thought came to a point where I can finally say; "its time for me to put everything to rest and be the mediocre." I became college instructor and then a teacher to a bunch of Koreans who are learning English. I dreamed of being employed in one or two of the world renowed corporation worldwide. The first one focuses on information and they are known about it and the other is a top notched exchange in the US. I had a manager title in my signature and handled top corporations both in Latin America and US managing their webcasting and Earnings Releases. Was able to influence someone build his career and now being recognized on the effort that he do in the company he is associated with. I have fulfilled my career journey and my college goal. All these were simply just a dream and they all became reality after years of exploration in the corporate world. They all became reality thank God for the idea of offshore office. I gotta experienced those offices I thought only in my dreams I could explore.

Soon after, I just simply realized I have come so far from what is expected of me. So far from what I thought I go reach. Enough for me to be at ease and explore new things. To explore new posibilities and opportunities.

The Black Apartment

I am always and will forever be a burger lover. I love and enjoy the exquisite, tender and juicy patty.

Once in a while me and my friends just meet up and dine out to some of the best restaurant they have tried.

My friend Apple once told me THE BLACK APARTMENT was really a big hit and definitely a pallete buggling burger house in Cavite.

Finally that day came and we went to the said burger house. It is really a 2 storey apartment painted in black.

Spooky and yet cozy! Thats how I see the facade of the burger house. Good thing when we went there its early afternoon so the burger house is not jump packed with customer.

I was quite disapointed when we went inside because the tables are small and I can imagine you would be bumping each other on their peak hours. I was expecting a spacious area for diner but I guess the owner is anticipating customer out pour so theyve decided to squeeze everything in one small space.

But since we went there on thier off peak hours the space did not bother me at all. So we started ordering our food. We ordered thier most expensive burgers and a spicy buttered chicken.

BURGER - their burger is super mouth watering. Their patty was jaw dropping. Every bite is all worth it. Its 100% beef it is definitely a pallette satisfying burger. We ordered one LANDLORD BURGER and my friend and I have to share the burger as it is super stomach satisfying.

Buttered Chicken

Its rare for me to fall in love with a buttered chicken because I am ending up regretting it because I really dont like how most restaurant cook it. However, THE BLACK APARTMENT is one of those exceptions. Its crispy, juicy, spicy, sweet and I love the dip!

MILK/FRUIT SHAKE

Fruit shake is one of my favorites as I am not a soda lover. So I ordered this mango lychee fruit shake and it feels heaven. Its smooth and the level of sweetness is just within my standard.

Finaly there's a burger house that is not so expensive but trully satisfying in Cavite. The one we visited is in PAG-ASA Molino Cavite. Overall, THE BLACK APARTMENT is your place to be to satisfy your burger cravings!