Resignation (체념) – Morissette Amon cover

I was happy those times I spent with you

Even though it was so hard for you

It’s not that I didn’t know how you felt in your heart

I felt it too.

Letting go, letting you leave it all behind

It’s something I just cannot get used to

You have hurt me so

And I just can’t help but fall away from you

Why’d you not tell me or you just could not?

Did you ever think of everything I feel?

You fell for me and said you loved me

But you just let me fall and never tried to catch me at all

Should I hate you and try to just forget?

Should I blame myself and live with this regret?

If I could only do it all again, I would turn back time

Back when I was yours and you were still mine

Why’d you not tell me or you just could not?

Did you ever think of everything I feel?

You fell for me and you loved me

But you just let me fall and never tried to catch me at all

Should I hate you and try to just forget?

Should I blame myself and live with this regret?

If I could only do it all again, I would turn back time

Back when I was yours and you were still mine

No, I won’t ask anymore

If you want to walk out that door

Just leave, leave and don’t look back

No, I won’t shed any tear and keep on hoping that you’re still here

I watch you walk away from me and it’s getting hard to see

We we’re never meant to be

Neol manhi geuriweohal geot gata chamayaman hagetji ijhyeojil su itdorok

Dashin saranggateungeo haji anheulrae

Nae majimak sarangeul doraseon neoege jugo shipeoseo

Haengbokhagil barae naboda jo-eun yeoja mannagireul

Imus General Community Quarantine Guidelines

We had been in lockdown for several weeks and surely it help in slowing down the community infections. There were few people who were infected evidently the local government action and response to the COVID-19 Pandemic is effective. Now they are trying to loosen up and allow very minimal movement within the city. And here are the guidelines they had in place while the city is in GCQ

Igorot In Lock down Episode 1

It has been a long time since I updated this blog. I had been busy at work, in life and definitely in the other blog I have. Nonetheless, I decided to share a different story in this blog and try to update it more often. This time around let me share to you my Lock down Experience.

Imagine being alone locked in the comfort of your home. No one to talk to. No one to eat with. Basically being alone.

There are a lot of moments during the ECQ (Enhanced Community Quarantine) where I had thoughts of self pity hahaha. When anxiety are kicking in. Moments where you felt so alone. Moments where you wished you had that special someone. Moments where I wanted everything dark. Flashes of memories when you felt you were abandoned by someone.

However, along with those bad moments comes an array of memories where I felt I was loved. Moments when you were struggling but someone came and stayed by your side. Moments when someone understands your inner feelings when that someone listens to your rants just so I can unload and move forward.

That is when positivity feels my tarnished emotion and starting to make myself useful again. That is when I told myself that there should be something I needed to do so I wouldn't feel anxious and not to feel alone.


1. I started to blog. Blogging or Writing consumes my time. It makes me wander. It is where I could exhaust my emotion. It is an activity that keeps my mind active and focused on the things I wanted to say.


2. I check my Social Media regularly. It is where I kept myself informed as to what is going on with my loved ones or the people I care. It is an avenue for me to socialize and chat and talk with my family and friends. At least it is an avenue where I could see how someone so dear is doing :).


3. Watching My Favorite Series also keeps me in love, motivated, and above all it keeps me entertained.


4. Reading keeps my imagination going hahahaha it somehow brings me to a different world where negativity do not prosper.


5. Household Chores my form of exercise. Its time to slowly get rid some of the memories stuck in my house. Throwing them away somehow is also a therapy as I try to throw away those emotion that comes along with these things.


6. Exploring my creative venture through sewing and beading.

During these time in EXTENDED COMMUNITY QUARANTINE/ LOCK DOWN due to the COVID PANDEMIC, falling into depression or anxiety attacks may kick in more so if you are alone like me. But there are ways to combat it. It is by doing something that you love. Doing something that keeps your body active and your mind working or wander around through reading or writing. Its up to you there are a lot of activities that we can do.


Withdrawing money or going to the bank is a struggle. Imagine, I am only at least a kilometer or 2 away to a mall near me, however, because that mall is part of different city as I am near that boundary and because Of the implemented lock down I cannot cross the border. The military men don't allow me even though I beg as the next bank/atm near me is at least 5 or 6 kilometers away and I would need to walk to get there since I don't have a car or there is no public transportation that I can take to get me to a bank.

It took my 2 hours to go to an ATM and another 2 hrs walking back home. Just to withdraw cash. It is one of the disadvantages of the ECQ where no public transportation is available.

Work from home at last! Fortunately the company allowed us to work from home! At least I wont loose a job and I am able to continue working. Good thing the company is generous enough to lend us the desktop in the office and provide as router so we could do our job. Here’s my new workspace for the next few months as we transition to work from home set up.

THE FOOD - I call it my #ECQFOOD

I am happy as I have a generous neighbour  who shares their food with me. The first on my list is Champorado, a Filipino comfort food with rice and chocolate and milk in it.

Living alone means doing just anything and everything on your own, that goes with food. During the “normal life” I used to have when we dont have this pandemic I just simply buy my own food in a small carinderia on a daily basis as I normally eat in a cafeteria at work. So basically I never intended to be cooking at home so I never bought a stove or rice cooker as I dont see any need of that. So during these whole time where everyone is in lockdown and a very limited time to go out in a given week I resorted to instant food.

The first one in my list is instant pancit canton with corned tuna! Hahaha oh yes baby! That instant noodle where you just pour hot water in it and let it set for few minutes drain the water and add canned corned tuna and boom I have instant food! I did not add the seasoning of the instant noodles because I dont want to add more junk seasoning and salt and msg into my food. I wanted the rawness of that corned tuna as a seasoning to taste for my noodles.

We get tired of eating just the canned sardines for breakfast till dinner right? So just what I did with corned tuna I added the sardines to my noodles. Its heaven! Hahaha that was my way of doing away with just plain sardines in the morning till dinner time!

I did all these because to avoid going out to buy food besides I would need to walk at least 2 hrs for me to get Jolibee or McDonalds so mixing food that is in my house already is more convenient and economical rather than having my food delivered to my house.

THE SERIES - watching these series is making me sane and definitely one of those moments where to keeps me excited. At least there are these days of the week where I am looking forward to because the new episode are being aired and when I had anxious feeling or I felt bored and alone I just re-watched those series that keeps me happy!

Every Saturday is MY ENGINEER night!

My Friday is of course 2gether The Series night

And there are series that I really love that I keep on watching anytime and every time I am bored! And click here to see them all.

Another crazy stuff I was able to make during lockdown (ECQ) is to challenge my crazyness to and created a hat full of beads. I came up with these idea when my virtual trainor told us to wear cap on a monday.

And then I created a crown for our THANKFUL THURSDAY Costume! Hahaha just doing over the top when my trainor ask me us to do something.

And of course the shade! It has to be over the top too! See I was thinking of throwing away these beads but instead of doing it, I just recreated something. It kills time as I stay home with no one to talk to and somehow it tickles a little of my imagination.

As we transition to what we call General Community Quarantine where it is more relaxed. It is relaxed in a way that at least we are able to have public transportation unlike the ECQ where there is no transportation available.So to share my experience about the GCQ then that would be the second part of this blog post. IGOROT IN LOCK DOWN EPISODE 2